Not Mind

i am not my mind
i am not my mind
and i am my mind
and i am my mind
and no mind

you are quite a find
you are quite a find
as the world unwinds
can't believe you're mine
you're not mine

picture of my friend
picture of my friend
on him i can depend
he's loyal to the end

biggest of the trees
whale of the seas
you takes care of me
i will defend thee
just wait and see...

Sea of Friends

live in a constant traumatic change,
you'll find there's no end to everything strange.
an unending nothing is coming for you,
is this the truth behind everything true?

everything born may face imminent death,
but things that are moving will never find rest.
already different than what you were then,
this seems to happen again and again.

again and again
only relative ends,
imagined stable and permanent pens.
everything living and everything dead,
lost in a sea of improbable friends.

live in a place that's lost all its walls,
lets in the wind and the slow waterfalls.
everyone watching when you change your clothes,
but no one will want to watch you decompose.

looking for logic, good luck, good luck,
behind the curtain there's no one to give a fuck.
there are a few things i might recommend,
though none of them matter, illogical friend.

again and again
only relative ends,
imagined stable and permanent pens.
everything living and everything dead,
lost in a sea of improbable friends.

live in a constant traumatic change,
you'll find there's no end to everything strange.
an unending nothing is coming for you,
this is the truth behind everything true.
is this the truth behind everything true?
this is the truth behind everything true.
is this the truth behind everything true?

Beluga

you knocked on her door,
she's that kind of girl,
carries nothing in her pockets but a
picture of herself made of glass.
she cries about war,
she's got a room full of pills,
i've got all the empty bottles on a shelf.

i thought i knew it all,
wrote it out on the wall.
i thought i knew it all,
wrote it down when you called.

i fell on the floor,
you sat on my chest,
pushed your tendrils in my sockets
like a worm eating under the grass.
i swallowed the phone,
bought a new pair of gloves,
fell in love and drowned in the tub.

i thought i knew it all,
wrote it out on the wall.
i thought i knew you all,
didn't expect the fall.

you knocked on her door,
she's that kind of girl,
carries nothing in her pockets but a
picture of herself made of glass.

The Weather

there are a million roads
that you will never travel on.
a million moments to be wanted
that are gone.
and in your seeking
there is nothing to be found.
i guarantee that you'll be buried
in the ground.

soon it will be time for you to
pay back all your loans,
and serve your time as
a pile of used bones.
the void you came from
is right where you'll end up.
same place that you have always been.
you have always been.

are you bored with being?
are you tired of sitting as you are?
the world that you've been waiting on is now.
there's nothing left for you to figure out.

it might be useful to go
happily insane.
maybe admit there's never
anything to blame.
life is always fair
when you look at things this way.
same place that you have always been.
cause you have always been.

are you bored with being?
are you tired of sitting as you are?
the world that you've been waiting on is now.
there's nothing left for you to figure out.

well here we go and there we went,
the world that you've been waiting on.
all that i know all that i've said,
there's nothing left to figure out.

it's just the weather, you have always been.

Ever Let Me Go

why don't you see me
the way i see you?
you've been out of my mind
for moments far between and few.
i think you're lookin for someone
who does things i never do.

i'd get my brain started up
if you could give me a clue.
feels like i'm facing something
we've already gone through,
but it's so hard to tell where
all this is leading to.

maybe you should let me go,
i wish that you'd let me go,
please don't ever let me go.
i don't think i'll ever know
just where you wanted this to flow,
but i know it's flown so slow.

i didn't ask for these
old feeling to renew.
and when i kissed you
the color was blue.
i never questioned
if that feeling was true.

maybe you should let me go,
i wish that you'd let me go,
please don't ever let me go.
i don't think i'll ever know
just where you wanted this to flow,
but i know it's flown so slow.

Water, Water

water, water soon i will be with you
doing everything i hope to do.
animating puzzles in the city,
helping all the women grow their hair.

i fell into the ocean with no clothes on,
my mind becoming salt inside a throat.
my body was expanding very quickly.
we could feel everything to be.
we could feel everything to be.

god is the pigeon out your window,
everybody walking in the street,
standing on her doorstep waiting anxiously,
fat guy in the pool with his shirt on.

we can imitate an imitation.
i am billions of years old.
i am a non-migratory population.
i'm tired of feeling like a captive.

water, water soon i will be with you
doing everything i hope to do.
animating puzzles in the city,
we could feel everything to be.
we could feel everything to be.

Sudden Sadness

a sudden sadness.
a swollen something.
i need to get myself
away from your smell.

when you are not around
i'm so happy
that i tear at my stomach
trying to get at something i should bury.
when you are within view
i try to throw up smiling,
but it comes out like i'm glad to see you.
that's never what i hope to do.

so i keep a distance and i hate that too.
it's a distance you can see right through.
and i mumble things i know aren't true.

i make a great little rebound.
you make an adequate muse.
i was smiling when you left me.
felt so good to be used.

so i keep a distance and i hate that too.
it's a distance you can see right through.
and i mumble things i know aren't true.

End of Talking Carp

when my face falls off and my bones fall apart,
i don't know where you will be.
you might think my name and my blood are the same,
but neither of these things are me.

when you stare into the sun as if it's the only one,
your foolishness keeps me warm.
at the end of the day, when i'm done with the play,
i know i know i know i've done you harm.

such a silly game we play when we're awake,
continued in even our dreams.
and i love your love i do,
though it burns me through and through...
boy, you know i'm just exactly what i seems.

the shark bit the fish, hadn't eaten in days,
singin': "please don't let this feeling swim away."
i got a lotta bodies on my fishin' hook,
but that won't bring back yesterday.

it costs your death for your life,
so's better not to love your wife,
when everything you love will bring you pain.
to love your death makes more sense,
from this side of the fence,
where everything is going down the drain.

the shark bit the fish, hadn't eaten in days,
singin': "please don't let this feeling swim away."
i got a lotta bodies on my fishin' hooks,
but that won't bring back yesterday... yesterday....

Impossible Love

why does time pass so slow
when i'm waiting to hear you
tell me i should go
when i already know?

don't you look at me that way
if you don't feel the things
you hear me say.
you know i wanna stay.

impossible love is as real as i've known.
keeps me gettin around, but feeling i'm alone.
when every time i wished it was you i was taking home.

Will Be Gone

animal,
take off your clothes.
our jaws are the same.
we all hurt to move.

independent,
of not one thing.
barely even being,
somehow you are being.

i wholey love
your fragility.
not a moment
has broken you.
a fear of loss
runs right you through.
and you will be gone.

can you see
more than eyes?
animal dies,
that one was a dog.

hair and skin,
growing again.
live is a freak.
you are the wind.

i wholey love
your fragility.
not a moment
has broken you.
a fear of loss
runs right you through.
and you will be gone.

every breathe is put to sleep.

No Idea

is it you
coming through
that door?

is it you
who's been sleeping on
my floor?

is it you
who's been growing up
this year?

is it you
who's lost your sense
of fear?

well, i can't help much with that.
i have no idea where i'm at.